Pursuit of the Puck

A Penfield high school student’s efforts to compete in ice hockey at its highest level.

Photography and Text by Caroline Sherman

The Super Bowl is on full volume with everyone gathered in the living room, watching the football fly across the wide screen. Subs, salad, and chips are spread across the kitchen island with all of the adults gathered around and chatting. Half of the family is watching the game intensely hoping to win the bets they placed. Everyone else is excited to see Taylor Swift pop up on the screen for a few seconds at any moment.

On the multi-colored carpet under the TV sits Kayla and her little cousin Stella. Kayla has dark curly brown hair, wearing a loose dark gray Yosemite t-shirt with a silver chain necklace, baggy khaki cargo pants and slippers in contrast to Stella, wearing clothing covered in bright pink hearts and clip-on princess earrings. They are playing “princesses” on the floor with a small pink castle- even a small toy figure of Buffalo Bill’s Josh Allen made an appearance. Kayla loves spending time with her extended family on the weekend at home.

Kayla Suders, 17, is a junior in high school at Penfield Central High School in Penfield, N.Y. Most of her free time is balanced between spending time with friends and hanging out with family. Kayla, along with her two younger twin siblings, Ella and Ryan, 12, spend half the week at their mom’s house and the other half at dad’s, rotating on the weekends. Her family is her biggest support system and she sees her extended family frequently, playing with her little cousins and attending all of their events. Like other teenagers her age, Kayla spends a lot of time on her phone, connecting with friends and creating content on social media.

Kayla has started looking into colleges and discussing options with her parents. "I'm very influenced by the people I'm around, my personality changes, depending on who I'm with…” says Kayla. “I want to move far away so I can figure myself out.” One factor in her decision will be how she continues her hockey career. “I like to take it one day at a time,” she says. “If you worry about the week ahead, you don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow.”

(Top) Kayla lays on her bed, scrolling through TikTok on her phone at her mom’s home in Penfield, N.Y. TikTok is one of her favorite platforms to use and she has a following of about 150k. She describes TikTok as something fun she does once in a while, but not her main interest. (Bottom Left) Kayla has photos of the people who mean the most to her hanging over her bed. The photos include her parents when they were still together (left), her best friend (right), and her girlfriend (bottom). (Bottom Right) Kayla smiles at he brother, Ryan, who laughs at a video he showed her on his phone.

The majority of Kayla's life has been spent in ice rinks. Kayla’s father, Mike, played ice hockey and it was a huge part of his life. When she was 4 years old he introduced her to the sport and she fell in love with skating. From a young age, Kayla always had the dream to play hockey at the highest level possible.

I love waking up early if it’s something I’m excited about like hockey.

Kayla checks her phone while Mikayla finishes getting ready in the girls’ locker room on Jan. 22, 2024 at Blue Cross Arena in Rochester, N.Y. “I like her as a teammate, we just clicked because of hockey. Also, she is the other only girl on the team.”

She is currently one of two girls on the Penfield varsity hockey team for her high school. Kayla is also balancing the schedules of two more hockey teams that all play during the same season. “Practice after school is such a chore,” she says.

Kayla likes being able to represent her school as a part of the Penfield hockey team. Having teammate Mikayla Mrzywka alongside her has been a huge benefit. “I need her there,” says Kayla. “Sometimes if she’s not at practice, I don't want to go because I feel like I'm by myself. I don't want to be left alone with the guys.” They enjoy each other’s support and company on the team together. “We don't see each other much outside of hockey, we both play on different travel teams so we're always busy. It's a hockey relationship.”

In the off-season of ice hockey, Kayla has joined the girls flag football team that was launched in the spring of 2023. She was awarded MVP and also gets to play a different sport with her teammate Mikayla.

Kayla walks to the parking lot with her father, Mike, and sister, Ella, talking about how she played during her game on Dec. 17, 2023 at Wegmans Ice Arena in Brockport, N.Y.

Varsity hockey mainly serves as the developmental piece of the sport, her priority lies within her tier 2 (AA) girls travel hockey for the 19U Rochester Jr. Americans. Kayla played on a boys travel team until she was about 12 years old, “Playing with the boys when I was younger gave me the competitive and aggressive mindset I have today.”

Kayla found that as she got older, it was harder for her to fit in when age caused more of a separation based on gender. She started playing girls travel hockey and developed deep bonds with her teammates that she never had with the boys. Girls hockey brought emotion and care to the sport compared to the boys that she only saw when at the rink.

Kayla shoots the puck, watching it enter the net. The Rochester Jr. Americans defeated Amherst Knights 9-2.

The limited opportunity in girls hockey compared to boys can make it more difficult to get the exposure necessary to advance to a higher level like college hockey. Many young women find themselves dedicating most of their time to the sport in hopes of meeting this goal.

“I just want to be happy with what I'm doing with my life. Sometimes I think about making it a part of my career. Whether it's in physical therapy for athletes or a coach at the college or pro level,” says Kayla.

As of late December, Kayla is officially part of inaugural Greater Rochester Girls High School Hockey. The addition of a third hockey team gives Kayla the opportunity to play hockey with her younger sister, Ella, on the same team. Ella looks up to Kayla as a big sister and a hockey player; she even wears the same number on her jersey, #12.

Kayla (right) celebrates with her younger sister Ella (left), after Kayla scores a goal at Tim Horton’s Iceplex in Henrietta, N.Y. This is the first time they have ever played a game together on the same team.

The balance between playing on three hockey teams is challenging for Kayla to navigate as it takes up most of her free time. She has days that she needs to attend two practices at different rinks, and days that she needs to prioritize one team’s game over the other, which tends to be with the Americans team. The girls travel team serves as an opportunity for recruitment exposure to play college hockey. Many of the tournaments they play in around the country serve as a showcase of her talent, and increase the chances of her goal to play at a more advanced level.

Any time available in her packed schedule is for family. She is extremely appreciative of her parents, grandparents, and cousins attending most of her games to cheer her on. Kayla likes being able to put the sport aside and bond with family away from the rink when possible.

(Top) Kayla and her extended family watch the Super Bowl game in the living room. Though her family are Buffalo Bills fans, they are all excited to see Taylor Swift pop up on the screen when the Kansas City Chiefs score. (Bottom Left) Kayla reaches for a birthday cookie, as she watches her younger cousins makes faces for a 0.5 picture. Her extended family were all gathered at her grandma’s house to celebrate her youngest cousin, Ava (left) turning four years old. (Bottom Right) Kayla keeps a piece of paper from a fortune cookie that reads “Home is where your heart is” in the back of her phone case. Staying connected to family to extremely important to her, and the fortune is a reminder of her support system.

Section V in western New York is known for having some of the top, most expansive hockey programs in the state, along with Section VI. These hockey programs include youth travel leagues to high school teams. For the upper high school years, boys travel hockey offers up to 93 teams across all levels while girls travel hockey sits at 16 teams. Tier 1 (AAA) and tier 2 (AA) hockey is the highest level in travel and provides the best opportunity for recruitment. With the tiers combined, boys travel currently has 33 teams and girls have 14. "Girls hockey takes the backseat to the boys program" says a father from Syracuse Valley hockey program. Based on the fewer team options for girls, it’s more competitive and requires much more travel to participate. Members of the Syracuse Valley team are made up of girls from multiple NY sections with distances ranging from 15-90 minutes just for practice alone.

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Her participation on multiple teams is in hopes of increasing her chances of playing in college, even if it takes away from her time to be a teenager. Kayla finds that her huge commitment to the sport can become a chore during January as she is about half way through the varsity season and travel season has under 3 months left. She finds that the combination of travel and high school hockey takes time away from seeing friends or seeking a job.

“My teammates help me feel the fun in hockey. It's just a sport when you don't love your teammates.”

Kayla’s travel teammates wait in the lobby to greet her at the ice rink doors after her first varsity game of the season on Nov. 28, 2023 at Webster Ice Arena in Webster, N.Y. Kayla was bummed to not get any ice time, but appreciates the support of all her friends cheering her on no matter what. Penfield Patriots defeated Webster 4-3.

Her experiences may differ from some Penfield varsity players as she doesn’t get much ice time during games, sometimes getting one 40 second shift or nothing at all. The game against Greece Storm on December 19, 2023 was one of the first times she got to play in a game this season. When Kayla finally went out at the start of the 3rd period, she gained control of the puck, was checked by her opponent and lost possession of the puck. Greece immediately scored their second goal of the game on this play and Kayla didn’t play for the rest of the game. 

She consistently feels pressure to perform at her best and not mess up. Kayla is hopeful to gain more time in games by making good plays and make her family proud when they attend every game. When her time on the ice doesn’t go well, she becomes extremely frustrated and knows that she probably won’t go out again. “She will always have us there to support her," says Kayla’s mom, Christie Suders.

Kayla sits facing the opposite way on the bench, disappointed after her shift on Dec. 19, 2023 at Webster Ice Arena in Webster, N.Y. When Kayla gained possession of the puck, she was bodychecked by her opponent, losing puck control and leading Greece to score their second goal of the game.

Kayla has dedicated so much effort to the team for barely any game experience, making her question if it’s even worth playing for the school. “But as much as I hate to admit it, boys have more speed and strength without even trying. So it makes me a better player going against harder competitors,” Kayla explains. She focuses on varsity practice serving as more ice time for her to develop as a player.

Kayla (middle) skates with the puck during a two-on-one passing drill at practice on Nov. 13, 2023 at Webster Ice Arena in Webster, NY. She was nervous on if she could stay with the boys’ speed, since it was team tryouts.

Kayla’s motivation to continue playing on multiple teams is deeply impacted by the relationships she builds with her teammates over time. Early experiences with boys hockey when she was younger has sometimes made the sport really uncomfortable. “At first it was small things like comments about how I was a girl on a mostly guys team. Or they would call me a ‘Tomboy’ because I played hockey and not a ‘girl sport’...” says Kayla. “It got to the point where I felt very uncomfortable because they would tear me down in front of each other to make each other laugh. I even tried out cheerleading so that they would stop making comments about how I’m a tomboy.”

“It’s difficult in life to be a woman in a man’s world” says Christie. “You want to protect your kid and shell them from mean judgmental people. But she’s okay with it! She loves that she can do whatever she wants.”

Kayla ties her purple tie in the girl’s locker room bathroom mirror after her varsity game. Kayla always wears a suit and tie for all of her varsity games. She jokes about how she looks like a little boy and blends in with the rest of her team because they're all wearing the same thing and she’s not in a girly dress.

“Even now in varsity I’m the go to person to pick on. But now, I kind of figured out that some of the guys are just insecure and are trying to fit in as well. People are for the most part okay on their own. But when they are with other people, they will say and do anything to feel like they belong. The things that happened when I was younger just prepared me for what to expect when I'm older. It taught me to not be bothered by other people as much.”

“I like to take it one day at a time. If you worry about the week ahead, you don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow.”

Kayla stands at the glass, watching the 16U Rochester Jr. Americans play on Jan. 13, 2024 at New England Sports Center in Marlborough, M.A.